monster32's Blog

sometimes i wonder why i dont live by myself. i mean i pay for everything, rent, some bills, like phone. and the phone dont even belong to me. i pay up to 103 dollars a month for that. i have 2 kids, one lives with me and the other with his dad. i left a 8 year relationship because of shit. and now im about to marry my best friend. thing is no one will hire him for reasons that are not worth my time to share. all he does is sit in front of the tv and play games all day and bitch about things. i get so sick of it. but then again i cant really bitch because he cant get a job and every time i turn around someone is accussing him of something. but i so love him he just gets on my dam nerves alot.

ok, so here i am on a new page about to tell everyone my business. so here goes. im 32, and i im half afriad to rite anything. why you ask, because when i was 16, i had this diary. i wrote everything in it, from that day in school to the last time i hung out with friends to even my sex life. yes i said my sex life. at least thats what i thought it was. i was 16. but anyways, my uncle hated me to begin with, so he knew i had this diary. well just to be hateful or nosey he decided to read my diary out lound. obviously my uncle his gf and my dad, yes i said my dad. read my diary out lound. ive never been the same since then, i mean come on they read my own personal diary, a girls bf @ that age. so now i seem to trust issuses, major. ive tried to keep diarys since then but then i got scared and would throw the book away. this took a toll on me for trusting people, and to have written material, it scares me. what do you guys think, am i just being a bitch about it or was this extremly wrong, please tell me what you think.-monster.